Monday, January 9, 2012

Being Mama

People ask me all the time how I feel about motherhood, and honestly, I haven't figured out how to make that answer short and sweet.

It's wonderful and exhausting, fun and scary, rewarding and draining. I love spending time with NuNu, talking to him, reading to him, making him smile  and hearing his little coos and noises. But sometimes there are fleeting moments where I miss being able to come and go. And I mean that literally! When we go out or run errands it takes at least a half hour to load up. Making sure NuNu is fed, that I remember to pack his baby bag properly, that he's changed, that a bottle is made just in case, that we warm up the car before we head out and that's just for the baby. Nine times outta ten I leave the house looking like a mess just cause I lack the energy to make up my face or do my hair. Usually I just pull it into a school marm bun and let the dark circles under my eyes go bare and see daylight.
But on the other hand I don't really care, I'm mommy now and my priorities have changed. I could care less about what I look like and would rather focus that energy on taking care of my little one.
But again, on the other hand I can always put a face on in the car, as long as I'm the passenger. Lol .