Wednesday, August 31, 2011

GBE Wk 15: Longing

It helps me each day to believe that you're with me.
You're on the back of a yellow monarch's wings.
Or in the petals of yellow roses.
Or in the first whispers of Fall in the air.

Does it mean that my heart no longer aches when I think of my future without you in it?
Of course not.
Does it hurt me knowing you'll never meet the man who makes me so happy?
Or that I'll never watch you hold my newborn son?
Of course it does.

Sometimes the reality of your abscence hits me like it did the very first time and I cannot breathe.
I realize that no matter how much love and happiness I have in my life, there will always be a lonliness in my heart that can never be filled.

And the little life growing wild inside me, only brings me back to that realization even more these days.
I feel your presence and abscence all at the same time and it makes my heart and soul ache with confusion.

Friday, August 26, 2011

GBE Wk 14: Growing Wild

You move and you are growing.
You sleep and you are growing.
You kick and you are growing.

With every week that passes, you are growing.
Your eyes are learning to open.
Your lungs are learning to breathe.
Your brain is learning to dream.
Your ears are learning my voice. (And Daddy's voice too.)

I sleep, and you grow.
I dream, and you grow.
I eat, and you grow.
I read, and you grow.
I watch the rain fall, and you grow.

You are growing wild my little love.